Bye Pre-k, Hello Kindergarten!

Today was Noah's last day of preschool and boy was it a hard day for me. I walked him into his pre-k class for the very last time this morning at 7:40 and walked into his classroom full of smiling faces. The innocence of children. One of Noah's teachers had tears in her eyes and I almost lost it but was able to keep it together. At least until I got to my car. Then came 2:40 and it was time to pick him up for the very last time. I walked down their little hallway to get to the classroom and the walls were empty. No pictures of smiling faces, no sticker charts on how many books they've read, no charts on their growth, nothing. I get into the classroom and they are all sitting at their little tables, name-tags still taped to their "spots" & they were having their last laughs and cupcakes together. I stood there and tried taking in every moment because in a few years, these little babes won't even remember each other. Truth is, it bothers me more than it does them. Why? I don't know. There was a banner with each child's name and handprint along with "Class of 2024" and I asked if I could have it & they gave it to me! I was so thankful noone else had claimed it because I had been keeping my eye on it for a while now. I got a large giftbag full of all of the little things he has created since August of last year. Memories I will hold onto forever. I am so proud of Noah & the little boy he has become and I thank God every single day that he has blessed me with two wonderful little boys.

Oh, boy..

My Noah boy has been having a hard time at pre-k all this week. He has cried every single day and it's really tearing my nerves up. I feel like I'm abandoning him with these "strangers" and all he wants is his mom and dad. I do know this is what he needs and he really really does enjoy it. He talks about how much fun he's had all day and even while we're laying in bed at night. It still bothers me. I hate leaving while he's crying. I sit out in the parking lot for about 5 minutes and then I call his teacher to check up on him - by that time he's dried up and playing with his little buddies. Am I a bad mom? No. Do I feel like it? Yes. The new baby will be here this time next week - September 1st -I will be in the OR at 7:30 a.m. meeting Noah's little brother for the first time. What if Noah is feeling emotional because he knows there will be huge changes taking place within the week? I'm just sad for him and I just want everything to work out for the best...I love him more than words can ever express.

ScHoOl Is CoOl !

Noah absolutely loves pre-school! This is his third day. He wakes up every morning in a good mood (surprisingly) and he's ready to start his new day with his new little friends. I'm so happy for him. Happy that he got into a really great school, happy he gets to learn alot of cool new things, and happy he gets to make TONS of new little friends that are exactly his age. He needs this so much. He loves it when they dance and listen to music - and when the music says freeze...he freezes! I think that's his favorite thing so far. He did have to sit next to the teacher at story time on his first day, he wouldn't sit still when she asked him to. He was not the only one...its a new process! Yesterday he did great and didn't have to sit with the teacher during story time, he sat through it and listened. YAY! Also, he is not a napper. They have to lay on their mats for one solid hour with the lights out. They do not have to sleep, just lie still. Big issue with him on the first day. He didn't get in trouble, but he didn't want to lay down either. Yesterday, however, he laid on his mat until the lights came on he said. I took him a blanket (required) and it has silk on the outside edges - and I think that helps. If I haven't ever mentioned it before, he loves silk. He has to sleep with some type of silk gown/material every night..he calls it his "beet beet". Not sure where he got that term, but that's what he's called silk since he was a little tiny boy. I think its cute and I refuse to take his security away from him. He's only little for a short period of time :) I love him sooo much and I'm so proud of him. He lights up my life in a million and one ways and I am so very blessed and thankful that God gave him to me.

In other news, NOAH'S BROTHER WILL BE HERE SOON!!

BIG DAY!

I'm not even sure if I blogged about it or not, but I tried signing Noah up for preschool a couple of weeks ago. No luck - they were booked. I did, however, put our name on a waiting list. Yesterday, we were passing by this school & Noah said "Mama, I really wish I could go there and play with kids but there's no opening". I felt horrible for him. He's 4 1/2 and has noone to play with. He's definitely sick of seeing me and his dad every single day 24/7. He's been whiny, clingy, etc. He's bored. I wake up this morning and about 20 minutes later the phone rings. It's the preschool calling to tell me they have an opening for Noah and to bring him in along with his shot record, birth certificate, ss card, etc. OMG!! Am I ready for this? Is Noah ready? I had a thousand emotions running through my body. I took a shower, woke Noah, dressed him and off we went. He did great. He danced with the kids, ate his breakfast (biscuit, eggs, milk) and told me I could leave if I wanted to!!! I stayed for about an hr & filled out paperwork. He starts at 7:55 a.m. & is dismissed at 2:40 p.m. WOW! I'm so nervous, he's there now...and I'm thinking about calling to check up on him. Will blog about his day!

It's Crazy 'Round Here

Alot going on, a lot on my mind. ..and I haven't really been in the mood to blog much. Oh, did I mention Noah is a Pre-k dropout? Yep, he only attended school for about 5 days total before I took him out. Why? Because he was sick so much and was out of school more than he went. . .and when he's out of school sick, we still have to pay. I'm content with him being home with me until he starts kindergarten. Really. They're in school so many years and I feel like when they're little, let them stay home as much as they can because that goes away too fast anyway.

A cute little story I have to share. I took Noah to Taco Bell the other day and got him a couple of soft tacos with no lettuce. He's not a lettuce eater. He was enjoying his taco, looking out the window and then gasped - "mama, here. . .a grasshopper"!! He found a piece of lettuce in his taco and thought it was a grasshopper!! LOL. He slung it on me because I guess he thought it was going to jump back on him or something. hahaha, I thought it was so funny!! Noah's 4th birthday is coming up and I have all his little invitations already addressed, ready to go out to his little cousins and friends. We're having his birthday party on Halloween and I can't wait! It'll be lots of fun.

In other news, I'm hoping to have some good news in another month and a half. We will see.

Noah's first day of Pre-k

Noah's first day of pre-k was yesterday! I was incredibly nervous and I cried the night before. I wanted to get it all out before morning so he wouldn't know I was upset about him going to school. He woke up and had a brown sugar/cinnamon poptart and a banana. Got him dressed and we headed to school. Sniffle. We walked him in the room and one little boy was clinging to his mom beggisng her not to leave. That made Noah nervous I think because he asked me not to leave him :( So I stayed for about 20 minutes. He did the Pledge, sang a song, and joined with kids on the rug. I went up to him and asked him if I could go outside with daddy and go get me a drink of water - and then come back and get him. He said ok and gave me a hug. I had a lump in my throat and I had to talk to myself the whole way to the car. Its so hard leaving your child in someone else's care for the first time. The feeling was horrible. But he wanted to be there and its only a 3 hr program - no big deal. As the days go by it will be easier I'm sure. I just love my little boy so much and I'm so thankful he had a wonderful, safe first day of pre-k.

Waiting for Fall

I love Fall. It's my favorite Season ever! Leaves falling, cool breezes, the smell of leaves burning in the air - I love it! Noah's birthday is in November and we are having him a huge party out in our field. Halloween theme this year. I'm hoping to get a few fog machines, do a spoon/egg relay (I'm painting the eggs like pumpkins), pinata bashing, hay ride, and we're renting an inflatable for all the kids to have fun on. I'm super pumped about it! Noah is wanting a Scooby Doo cake and decor, and that'll fit right in with the whole Halloween part of it. I love kid parties!

Another big thing we do is going to Fall Festivals. Ahh, I can just smell it now. Anyway, since it is 90ish degrees outside, it's kinda hard to imagine all the Fall festivities now. A girl can dream, though right?

Paid Noah's tuition today. It's official. I have a preschooler. Sniff Sniff Sniffle. Every stage is a blessing and so much fun, though. I'm thankful he's happy, healthy, and growing.

Spidey

Since this weekend is tax free weekend for all school supplies, we hit the local Walmart to get Noah his very own backpack and lunch box. He chose Spiderman! sniffle. Spiderman is a big boy choice - and that just tears me up. He use to like Lightening McQueen, Mickey Mouse, Little Einsteins. Now. It's Spiderman. We also got a notebook, glue sticks, and some pre-k books. He just informed me that he wants to ride a rocket ship. Why not. He's already leaving me for school.

((Sobbing))